Ai Er Novi
Posted by crazy4jesus on July 21, 2006
I have sinned. I fell into temptation badly. For the past week I’ve been moping around in guilt, and I know that the guilt was the bigger trap that I fell into from the Devil. I was always hard on myself in everything, so it was so easy to listen to the evil words of the wicked adversary. I stopped being a minister of Christ, stopped my service, felt like I couldn’t write anything on here, stopped being aware of people God put around me, and felt like I couldn’t go to God. Yesterday, God snapped me out of it with a couple things.
First was the St. Paul’s words – Romans 8:1 (more on that verse here)
Second, the fact that the goal in life isn’t to stop sinning, but to know God and his son Jesus Christ.
Third, I got to spend some time in meditation prayer, meditating on things not concerning myself, but on Christ’s ministry, on his fearlessness on going to everyone.
Fourth and the thing that finally opened my eyes, there were two people that i know God put before me, not to lift them up spiritually, but just to sit with them and listen to them. God put them there because they needed someone just to smile with them, and i was so caught up in my misery and guilt, that i was blind to it.
I’ve erased the stubbornness in my mind that i need to sit in guilt, and meditate on my sins, and continually by burdened by it, Christ took care of that, I just need to keep my heart open for what he has put in front of me.
Amira said
Its def. hard to come outa that funk and see what God has put before you, but its also harder to be able to help others even if its just listening to them when your feeling down…I’m glad you came to all those realizations and could to help others.
phyrrus said
As someone who has fallen more times than they can count, I totally understand where you are coming from on dealing with the guilt and letting one slip turn into the beginnings of a fall.
However you hit the nail square on the head when you said that the bigger fall happened when you allowed the Devil to start using your guilt to seperate you from God. I am just glad to hear that he has eased the tempest inside you.